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[17 Oct 2006|01:26am]
[ mood | loved ]
[ music | Bosc - Evolve ]

So Im in love
And I finally found a good guy
Isn't that amazing

kisses the stars

[04 Oct 2006|01:52am]
So I know Im going to post this and one person is going to think its to them... its not i swear... but for the person this is to all i wanted to say was:




I am doing what makes me happy... isnt that enough for you...
kisses the stars

How to save a life [15 Sep 2006|12:15am]
[ mood | excited ]

So I start my seven deadly sins week tomorrow...

Pride, Envy, Gluttony, Lust, Anger, Sloth, and Greed

The following week will be my seven heavenly virtues.

Faith, Hope, Charity, Fortitude, Justice, Temperance, and Prudence

I am pretty stoked...I just dont know which one to choose first.

kisses the stars

Surprise Surprise [01 Sep 2006|12:04am]
[ mood | upset ]
[ music | Dashboard - This Brilliant Dance ]

I actually truthfully thought things were going to be different
Things were actually going to change....
Hahaha what a joke...
Although, I have changed
I have changed a lot and I am my own person
Not a stupid girl who needs a guys attention
I really did love you and would give the world for you
But that is never enough...
I will waste my gas money
I will bring you and your friends dinner
But no... never ever enough
Everything always has to be thrown in my face
And its always you "picking"
But Im tired of having to fight for something
Feeling like shit cause its never enough
Hey! Wake up! I have a life
I have school
I have friends
I have work
You cant be the center of my attention 24/7
But oh wait you have to be
I know I should never say things when Im angry
But hey this is my journal
I can vent if I want to
So since I will tell you personally...
I might as well put it here too
I cant handle your neediness and school
Im sorry I am that weak
Im sorry I am hurting you
Im just being truthful
Im being honest
We cant continue what we had
I could blame it on you and say
"Hey you fucked up"
But I dont blame you at all
Its not your fault...
Im sorry
I cant handle this...
We can only see what the future holds for us
But for now I cant do this
You are such an amazing person
You are everything to me
I truely do love you
I just cant handle this
I am really really sorry
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[30 Jul 2006|11:37pm]
kisses the stars

[24 Jul 2006|11:52pm]
[ mood | loved ]
[ music | 40 Year Old Virgin ]

ok... So I havent updated in forever... so here goes


A lot has happened... a lot of things about me have changed and I see a lot of things through different eyes..... Ive made a lot of new friends and met a lot of new people...

I have a very important person in my life right now. His name is Richard Mitchell and he is my "finishing puzzle piece". We are both dealing with a lot and learning from each other. As I like to say I learn from every expirence and loving someone who lives far away is definately teaching me a lot. Ive learned patience and everyone who knows anything about me I am one of the least patient people in the world. When I want something I have to have it right now. I am also learning not to be a jealous, controling bitch. I am learing to trust someone. I always have up a huge wall against people but I am letting that down. We are dealing with the distance which is very hard for both of us but it makes us cherish every second we are together. Richard and I arent dating. That is a step we havent taken yet but we plan to take everything slow which is probably best. The more you work for things the more you cherish them in the long run.

All of my friends have been amazing to me. They always are!! Any time something goes bad they are always there for me... Courtney, Meredith, and Sarah are my best friends ever. Jordan has also always been there for me. He has helped me through every problem that has come up and every worry Ive ever had. He is so reassuring and is always there for me day or night. Our relationship brought us so much closer and we are better friends than anyone in the world. Haha he says that Richard and I are so cute that he hates us. But we cant help it.....

I start driving next wednesday which will be really nice because I will be able to see a lot more of people. I am in Richmond almost every other weekend to be with Richard and now i will be able to go by myself and spend a lot more time with just him and not have to rely on anyone.

So this was going to be an update on my life and its kinda just turning into how much I love Richard but I really miss him and he is the only thing on my mind. Everything everywhere reminds me of him. Im hoping that I will be moving to Richmond sooner then expected but I havent really said anything to anyone because I dont know if any of it will go through but here I go.... everyone there is a possibility I will be moving to Richmond soon. No promises though so dont get your hopes up or down....

I miss you and I need you so much closer

kisses the stars

[03 Jun 2006|04:35pm]
So things are changing for the better!! Im done with all that stupid shit!
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Even more... [01 Jan 2006|04:26pm]
[ mood | accomplished ]
[ music | Bright Eyes ]

"The only way to get into a person's head is to beat it open first." Micah felt he needed to be violent. All he wanted was to make a difference in the world. Where he had grown up no one would listen to you unless they had no other choice. The only way to gain respect was to make a man bleed.
When she first met him she just thought he was always looking for a fight. All she saw in him was hate and anger. He was the type of guy she would shy away from. She didn't like guys who fought and needed to win to feed their egos, but there was just something about him.

The air was cold at the footbal game. Aiden and her friend Riley were in a city they rarely visited. They were relieved when they ran into someone they knew. Tony had grown up with Aiden but had moved two hours away in his freshmen year. They caught up on everything that had happend in their lives since they last talked. Eventually, Aiden asked Tony if he had any idea where the rest of her friends were, but with their luck he didn't even know who they were.
They started walking around the stadium, trying to keep warm and trying to find someone they knew. Finally Tony found his friend Andrew hanging out with everyone Aiden had been looking for.
"Hey! I'm Andrew. Who are you?" Andrew questioned.
"Hey I'm Aiden, and this is Riley! Tony and I grew up together before he moved. I came up here to visit John, Justin, and Alex who you seem to know." Aiden replied pointing to all of her friends.
As the night progressed Aiden realized that everyone she had come in town for were acting like they were too good for the girls. Andrew was the only one who even paid attention to them. As they strolled around the stadium getting colder, Riley and Andrew started getting closer and closer.
After everyone had ditched them they stood around the stadium talking about their interests and just getting to know eachother better. Andrew would say, "hey" to everyone he knew, and every so often one would stop and talk for a while. One of Andrew's friends came up to Andrew and started talking. Andrew explained how he was going to get into a fight with some guys because they were making fun of a mentally handicapped child. After hearing this, Andrew's friend stormed off.
Everyone took off after him trying to calm him down. All he kept saying was, "Where
the hell are they? Show me who they are!"
Aiden and Riley were a little frightened but followed along anyways. Trying to lighten the mood while they were walking. Aiden started asking the unknown guy questions. No matter what she asked, she wasn't gong to calm him.
When they found the guys Andrew told Aiden and Riley to stay where they were while the guys went to talk. The girls watched fearfully to see who would throw the first punch. After about a minute of nothing but talking the girls thought of it safe to approach. They soon found out, that to their suprise, the mystery guy was the only calm person involved. Eventually he was the one that ended everything and walked away.
Once they stopped, Aiden wanted to find out more about the guy who surprised her only seconds before. She figured Riley and Andrew wouldn't mind as they were cuddled up together watching the game.
"Everything seemed to happen so quickly that we never had proper introductions. I'm Aiden!" she stated.
"Oh hey! My name is Micah. Sorry about all of that. I just hate people like them. Where are you from? I've never seen you around here," replied Micah.
"Yeah we don't come up here often. We are from a samll town which I'm sure you've never heard of, Lynchburg."
Suprisingly he knew exactly where she was talking about.
Micah proceeded to tell her about some of the people from Lynchburg that he had fought. Some of them she knew and some she had never heard of. She sat quietly listening to his stories, and she started to think that maybe all Micah did was fight. Though, she knew there had to be something behind all the anger and pain. She had a feeling that the violent person who'd gotten into the fight minutes before was only one side to this fascinating character. She had a feeling that that wasn't who he really was and she was determined to find the real Micah.
All night she could tell that he was hiding something. Aiden too was hiding some things. She was hiding the possible feelings she had for Micah.

Aiden, Riely, Andrew, and Micah all left the game early. Andrew drove them to an apartment complex close by. There was a small pond with bridges and walkways. The moon was refelcting off the water making everything have a slight glow. The steam that was coming off the water, from where it was warmer then the air, was disappearing in the stary sky. Micah asked Aiden to walk with him so they could be alone to talk. It was so cold but also so beautiful. Riley and Andrew decided to stay in the car where it was warm so Aiden agreed to go.
They slowly crossed the closest bridge and then took a seat on a bench. Aiden was shivering from the cold so Micah gave her his jacket leaving him in only a t-shirt.
"You are going to freeze! Are you crazy?" Aiden questioned
"Well I can deal with the cold as long as you are warm," Micah replied
They talked about their likes, dislikes, morals, and then it came to talking about their pasts. Aiden, assuming that Micah's pain and anger had com from his past, decided to share her's first. It's easier to open up to someone who has already bared their soul to you. Aiden's past wasn't very eventful or exciting but it was her past that made her who she was. When she was finished she sat patiently and waited for Micah to speak. He said nothing and she wasn't going to push. Finally after a while of silence Aiden said, "You don't have to hide anything from me. I'm not going to judge you."
In silence they sat keeping warm by eachother's body heat. Aiden was searching for something to break the silence, when Micah turned her chin towards him,
"I knew from the moment I met you there was something about you, You have that amazing glow."
After saying that Micah gently kissed her.
"You are the only person I've ever met who seems to care about me this much. How do you know you won't judge me when you dont even know what I've done?"
All Aiden had to say was,
"Because I know that you past is not who you are. I want to know what has hurt you to make you who you are. Your scars are too deep to hide."
Micah knew he needed to tell her, she needed to understand.
"The things I will tell you no one else knows. Most of it will be painful to say, but I think you have the right to know."
Aiden sat silentnly listening to his story, she was starting to understand everything. Micah had gone through so much and he was only seventeen. Quietly she cried listening to his story, hanging on to his every sorrowful word. Hearing about all of his pain gave her an opportunity to release hers. Everything that she had kept inside was all coming out. When Micah finished he noticed her tears.
"Please don't cry, I really didn't mean to upset you," Micah tried to comfort her.
"It isnt all you. A lot of it is just everything I have kept bottled up. I am so sorry for everything you've gone through. You had to grow up so fast. It's as if you never had a childhood," Aiden started to calm down. "Very few people have gone through what you have but you can't hold on to that forever. You can't hold everything inside you."
"I know but its hard for me to let my feelings out. Showing your feelings is a weakness. I refuse to be a weak person," he responded
"Well at least know that you can always show your feelings to me. In my eyes you will never be a weaker person in any way. Everyone needs to be able to let out what they really feel. I know you only met me but you can trust me Micah. I swear to you I will never judge you for anything you have done or said," Aiden said.
Micah gently kissed her again and then just held her in his arms. With her head resting on his chest she could hear his every heart beat. Every breath he took. She had never felt closer to anyone in her entire life.
"Thank you," Micah wispered.

The sound of the car horn made Aiden jump. She then heard her cell phone ringing. It was Riley.
"Yea, whats up?" Aiden answered
"Im sorry to crash your party but, um well if you don't want to be killed we need to get out of here. It is 11:30 and we are ten minutes from the school which is another ten minutes from your aunts house," Riley responded
"Okay, thanks. We will be there in a few minutes!" Aiden hung up the phone and put it back into her pocket.
"What was that all about," Micah questioned
"It's getting late and we need to get home. Andrew is going to take us back to the school to pick up the car and then we have to be in my aunt's house before midnight," Aiden replied getting up from the bench holding Micah's hand. "Come on! Get up. I know I know, but we will be in the car soon enough. Lazy!"
Micah just smiled and looked into her eyes. Aiden turned and walked, knowing Micah would follow, before he had the chance to stop her again.
When reaching the car the first thing Aiden noticed was Riley's lips red from too much kissing. Aiden just rolled her eyes and hoped in the back of the car without saying a word. As they pulled out of the parking lot Micah reached over and took Aiden's hand in his. In the darkness all she could see were his eyes but she could tell they were saying thank you. The rode in silence all the way back to the school with only the music in the background. Micah didn't let go of Aiden's hand until they got to the high school.
Micah walked Aiden to her car so Riley and Andrew could have some privacy while saying their goodbyes.
"Do you think I could get your number? I dont have a cell phone or anything to put it in but I would really like to hang out with you again before you leave. If you want that is. If you have a pen or something you could just write it on my hand," Micah stammered nervously.
Aiden searched through her purse looking for a pen but of course she didnt have one. She then pulled out her eyeliner that she always caried with her and grabbed Micah's arm.
"434-475-8954 - Aiden," she recited as she wrote it down. "We are going shopping tomorrow morning but we should be free all evening so we should definately do something. And don't be so nervous, I really want to spend more time with you!"
"Sorry I'm just not normally like this. Having feelings for someone is also a weakness, and you know how I am," Micah responded.
"Well then I guess it will just be our little secret. I promise I wont tell anyone," Aiden winked and then gave him a small kiss on the cheek. "Call me in the morning if not before and we will do something tomorrow."
Aiden opened the door and got into her car as Riley was getting in the passenger seat. Riley blew Andrew a kiss then closed the door. Aiden smiled and started her car and Micah stood there until they drove off, and then got into the passenger seat of Andrew's car.

"Looks like you had some fun tonight" Micah accused Andrew.
"Oh and you didn't? Riley and I are just a weekend fling just like you and Aiden," Andrew responded
"Haha yea." Micah knew that to him and Aiden that wasn't all it was. It was so much more then just a weekend fling. He really had feelings for Aiden and was just hoping she had them in return.

"Oh my god, he is so cute! He is a really good kisser too!" Riley exclaimed when they pulled out of the parking lot. "How about Micah. He is a cutie too. What did yall do all alone across the pond?"
"We talked. We had a very intense, emotional conversation. Riley, is it possible to like someone the day you meet them?" Aiden questioned
"All you did was talk! Like someone in one day! You are really starting to fall for this boy aren't you? Have you even thought about going back home? Whats supposed to happen then. I know how you get attached to boys and Im not letting you get attached to an angry, jerk from another city that you dont even know anything about!" Riley lectured.
"Micah isnt a jerk! And I do know a lot about him. There is just something about him Riley. I cant help but like him. I dont even want to think about home right now. I guess lets just see how things go," Aiden defensively stated

The sun was just starting to shine through the windows as Aiden opened her eyes. She glanced over at the alarm clock. It was only 8:30 but she knew she wouldn't be able to fall back asleep. She laid in the bed thinking over what she needed to get done while she was in town.
"Lets see. We need to go shoping so we can go to Carry Town first, then we can head over to Soney Point mall. We can get a bite to eat before heading over to Short Pump mall then come back here to get ready for whatever plans the night holds for us. Man we have a busy day ahead of us," Aiden thought to herself. She glanced over at Riley who was still sound asleep. Everyone else in the house seemed to be awake so she got up and headed for the shower.
After getting out of the shower she returned to her room where Riley was awake and on the computer.
"Hey loser, showers open," Aiden reported.
"Finally your out! Man, you take forever to get clean," Riley joked in response.
"We have a ton of stuff to get done today so hurry up and get ready. We can get some breakfast downstairs before we go shopping if you want. I dont really care we just have a lot to get done if you want to go out with the boys tonight," Aiden rushed Riley then started to look for the perfect outfit. She eventually found something both cute and warm to wear since they would be outside most of the day. She blow dryed her hair, put on her makeup and got something to eat by the time Riley was ready so Riley just picked up a muffin to take with her. After informing Aiden's aunt about the plans for the day they were in the car and on their way to go shopping.
It was a gorgeous day so shopping in the outdoor malls was very nice. They stopped at a deli in Carry Town to get lunch before heading off to Stoney Point mall. They blazed through Stoney Point and were on their way to Short Pump mall when Aiden got a phone call.
"Hey Aiden, its Micah. There is a show tonight at Alley Katz and I was wondering if you and Riley wanted to come. I really would love to see you again and Andrew is dying to see Riley. Haha, those two are lame, but do you want to come?" Micah questioned Aiden hoping the answer would be yes.
"Yea! We would love to come. I have to check it out with my aunt first but Im sure she will have no problem with it. We are on out way to Short Pump Mall now then we will be heading back to the house. I can call you once I get an answer if you would like," Aiden replied.
"Yeah, thats fine. Just, um, call me on Andrew's phone because I'll be with him all day. His number is 804-579-7865. I'll try and answer if I see its you. But, um, I'll let you ladies go and finish up your shopping. Just give me a call. Bye." Aiden hung up the phone before even telling Riley what plans she had just made for them for the night.
"Hey, Micah and Andrew want us to go to a show tonight at Alley Katz. Is that cool with you? Andrew really wants to see you," Aiden informed Riley who was too concerned with the map to even hear what Aiden was saying.
"Yeah, thats cool. Did you ever figure out which way this map is supposed to go? Im not sure what is the top and what is the bottom," Riley replied. Aiden just shook her head and turned into the mall. The girls finished up their shopping then returned to the house to see if they were allowed to go to the show that night.
Once Aiden's aunt agreed to their plans Aiden immeditaly called Micah to let him know that they would be there. She figured out all of the details, got directions and then hung up. Looking at the clock Aiden realized that she only had two and a half hours to get ready and be there, and of course she had so much to do to get ready.
The girls rushed to get ready. They had to find the cutiest outfits and fix their hair and makeup. Everything had to be just perfect so they ended up changing their outfits atleast four times.

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[27 Dec 2005|11:08pm]
[ mood | creative ]

I just want your comments/advice... thanks!

Part 1 )

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Friends only from now on! [13 Dec 2005|10:51pm]

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Cameras give you the option to keep a memory alive forever.... [28 Nov 2005|10:09pm]
[ mood | satisfied ]
[ music | Mae - The Everglow ]

... but what if we dont want to remember? )

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[08 Sep 2005|06:16pm]
[ mood | disappointed ]
[ music | Fall Out Boy ]

Well its been quite some time... havent posted much cause i found out my mother was reading it... how lame... and quite nosey... well anyway I dont feel like posting much so Im just going to do a quick run through of everything that has happened in a +/- chart!!

+ Summer was awesome
- It flew by way to fast
+ I've learned a lot this summer

Lets start off in June:
+++/--- Well June just wasnt a very good month for me

So then there is July:
+ Start of July was pretty awesome
+ Fourth of July over at Stadium with Sam and Don
+ Camping with following weekend
- Lots of work the month of July
-- Lots and lots of drama...

So lets move on to Aug
+ No marching band
+ Beach Trip '05
+++ Warped Tour!!
+ Templeton Family Beach Trip
- Work some more
- Terriable break up
++ Aug 19th show
++++++ Phone calls after the 19th
+ Smiles on my face every day
- Start back to school

And so far the only thing that has happened in Sept. is that I went to Boston last weekend and I got in a ton of trouble today.... I hate myself and the stupid choices I make... I am mad at no one but myself... Oh well...

Sometime next week I get to see my amazing Roanoke boy then next Friday is the show in Elon and that Saturday more spending time!!

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Sorry its such a long post but completely worth your while [26 Jul 2005|09:02pm]
[ mood | chipper ]

Wow... Dont you love it when you find things like Journals that you had when you were real little... then you sit there and read them and laugh and laugh!! Well if you have never been able to do that I have decided to write down what I wrote in one of my journals in 6th grade so you can laugh at me... and Im going to spell everything exactly like I did back then...

11-4-01
Last night was so much fun! Devin is so sweet! Last night we went to see American Sweethearts and I say by him and he put his arm around my shoulder and I put my head on his and he kissed me!! It was so sweet. Mea and Matt make a cute couple but Matt can be annoying! But oh well. I think the whole Anthrax is stupid!

11-6-01
Sorry I didn't write yesterday. I had a sleepover and me and Stacey went out side and watched the shooting stars while I talked to Devin on the phone. We made a movie which was alot of fun! Last night when we were outside we saw over 10 shooting stars, it was pretty! I love Devin so much and he is so sweet! I will have been going out with him for 2 weeks on Fri. Actually Friday is the JF and Brookville football game! I will be fun even though we will get our butts kicked! Hopefully Devin will be able to go because that would make it even more fun. My only problem is that I have to find the $ to get in but I will find it. Well I'm going to go to sleep now but hopefully I'll be able to write tomorow.

11-8-01
Hey! today I was sick from school and I didn't call Devin! I hope Brandon is happy! He has a fit everytime I call but I just think he is jellous! Oh well he will have to deal with it because I am in love with his brother! Devin is so sweet! I will have to print out with convo we had but it is so sweet! He was ignoring me in the hall yesterday but I jus think he was just ticked at Mea for annoting him. I love him so much! I just don't know what to get him for Christmas. We may go to the movies Sat. or Sun. Hopefully he will be able to go to the football game so we can hang out! Maybe he will kiss me! I know he will hug me but maybe Ill get a kiss! Well gonna go to sleep so Im not sick again tomorow!
(Ok just a side note looking back on this post... I love how when we were young we were always in love... even if we didnt date them for more then two days we were in love with them... and everything was also such a big deal... and getting kissed was even a bigger deal!!)

11-21-01
Hey! Sorry I haven't written in almost 20 day. Let me inform you in the latest news. Devin dumped me about a week ago. First of all it was on the PHONE! Second of all he called my back 5 minutes later and wanted to know if I would go back out with him and I was like you freakin uberdike NO! A day later I found out that Casey Hargis had liked me science second grade! But that he was afraid to ask me out! I suffered a whole weekend woundering if he would ask me out! On Monday my friend said she was going to annoy him until he did and I was like don't do that. that is mean. After P.E. he obvisoly had it already written but he gave me this long sweet note and at the end it said, "Will you go out with me?" I admeitly wrote YES! Then I gave it to Liz to give to him. I later called him and asked is he got the letter. And he said yes! Then he said, ""Don't say a word. I want to tell you something. I love you so much and I always will" and I said, "Aww!" Well see he has the stuffed monkey and I told him that it was so cute! Then today he tossed it to me at lunch and told me I could have it but Im going to give it back to him on Monday! Hey on monday we will have been going out for a week! Well Im going to go now! Bye!
(Side note on this one... who used the word uberdike?? haha oh well and Devin this boy that I was "completely in love with" he broke up with me and less then a week later I was dating this new kid... haha and the day Casey asked me out he said that he loved me so much and always would! This just shows how much we really didnt know about love... bahaha!!)

11-23-01
Hey sorry I didnt write yesterday! #1 it was Thanksgiving and I was at my Nanny's allmost all day! #2 I spent the night at my aunt Rhonda's house with my cousins Tyler, Kylie, and Ashton. Last night Ashton had a temptuature of 102.3 so we called her mom to come and pick her up. When she got home he had to go to the hospital for her tempture and she had a nose bleed. Tomorow we are having 22 people over! It will be a lot of fun! Sunday I might get to ride Red Eye (my horse)! I wish Montana (another horse) was broke in because I want to ride him so bad! I love my horse! I can't believe Casey has liked me sience 2nd grade. I have always liked him but thought that he hated my guts! He is so sweet to me. Maybe next weekend we might be able to go see a movie together. That would be so much fun! I love Casey! Well I got to go to sleep now! TTYL!Bye!





Haha so all in all my childhood years were quite funny and verry full of love... atleast to me they were... if you were one of my friends or in my grade and remember this I hope you got a good laugh out of it too... Sorry for it being such a long post but I hadnt posted in forever and I thought it was pretty funny!!


I love all of my friends so much a you mean so much to me... thanks for everything you have ever giving me and thanks for always being there for me... If we havent kept in touch and you want to againg you know how to get in touch with me... I love you guys so much!!

3 <3 kisses the stars

[07 Jun 2005|01:24am]
[ mood | refreshed ]

you know what... fuck it... everything from this point on is new... fuck the past... im starting over from today and anyone who brings up the past is just going to get... fuck it... its over and ive moved on

1:22am 6*7*05 - starting over

oh yea and guys remember... 'if your life has hit rock bottom than there is no other way to go but up and if it doesnt go up than you havent hit rock bottom' - david webb

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[02 Jun 2005|03:33am]
sorry about the sXe comment... I hate that title/classification and I dont want to put anyone into it that doesnt claim to be... by sXe I more or less mean't better kids than I used to be hanging out with...
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[31 May 2005|10:14pm]
[ mood | disappointed in myself ]

Wow I hate this shit so much...

I was hanging around kids who werent the best kind of kids to be hanging around with... they were older and they did some things... well these things included smoking and drinking... well hince writing about everything i do in here and my mom being nosey she decided to read every post I had... so she found out how i use to smoke and that ive drank before so now I decided to force myself to stay away from that group of people... I got an entire new group of people to hang out with... also older but straight-edge...

So anyways Ive gone and gotten an entirely different group of people who I love to death and seperated myself from the "bad crowd"... Well now my mom doesnt want me hanging out with Cullen all the time because he is "too old for me"...

Well I have kept myself away from the people I need to stay away from but I obviously forgot about somethings from my past... like a wine bottle a friend of mine gave me with very little wine in it just so i could have the bottle... well since it did have wine in it like an idiot instead of just going and pouring the wine out I hid the bottle and completely forgot about it... so today when my sister goes off on this rampage about how im wearing her shirt and trys to beat the shit out of me and then calls my mom and tells her that i had her shirt on... blah blah blah you know being a psyco bitch I was kicked out of my room untill my mom could come home and search it for my sisters shirt...

Well she didnt find my sisters shirt because like I said I didnt have it and my sister was just being psyco but she found the wine bottle that i had forgotten about and now I no longer have my cell phone...

so here are the +/- of my life:

- my sister is psyco
+ she leaves in Aug for 5 months
- I have no cell phone
- My mom doesnt realize my progress of getting away from that group
- My mom thinks me and the SxE kids shouldnt hang out
+ I try and make the best out of every situation
+ I got out of the horiably influential crowd


So this is my concluding sentence... I just wish my mom would realize that Im getting out of the shit that has been making me make bad choices and Im getting better and there is nothing wrong with the SxE kids Ive been hanging out with and that my cell phone is my life.

Wait she knows the cell phone part other wise she wouldnt have taken it away...

I dislike life right now but then again shit is getting better just after is gets worse...

Please pray for me... Oh yea and if you want to talk my number is 525*6687

2 <3 kisses the stars

[21 May 2005|09:59am]
[ mood | chipper ]

Your LJ Star Wars by _eyesofpride_
Username
Age
Anakin Skywalker...xkillthemelody
Padme...xplodinmanboobs
Obi-Wan..._eyesofpride_
Darth Sidious...the_hat_of_jack
Mace Windu...cannowski
Yoda...praetorian_1
C3P0...nowdatdude
R2D2...whackadrum14
Battle Droid...inthekeyofe
Han Solo (just cause)...sandungera150
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1 <3 kisses the stars

[17 May 2005|10:18pm]
[ mood | exhausted ]

Ok now for the rest of the pics... these are from Saturdays show!!

 

051505 )

2 <3 kisses the stars

[16 May 2005|11:01pm]
[ mood | tired ]

Ok well I have a TON of pictures from this weekend and they are all amazing so i plan to post all of them... sorry guys but its a bunch!!

 

051305 )

7 <3 kisses the stars

[16 May 2005|09:47pm]
[ mood | chipper ]


What You Really Think Of Your Friends



Evan is your soulmate.
You truly love Kyle.
You consider Cullen your true friend.
You know that Courtney is always thinking of you.
You'll remember Ben for the rest of your life.
You secretly think Don is creative, charming, and a bit too dramatic at times.
You secretly think that Ashley is colorful, impulsive, and a total risk taker.
You secretly think that Merf is loyal and trustworthy to you. And that Merf changes lovers faster than underwear.
You secretly think Donnie is shy and nonconfrontational. And that Donnie has a hidden internet romance.


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